Office Politics

This shit is getting out of control. I'm kind of in awe of it. I guess I didn't realize the amount of petty drama that goes on around here but god damn is there a lot of it. Between being told who we can and cannot take breaks with to people getting testy about someone not wanting to grab another person lunch while they're out. I'm entirely fed up. There wasn't this much dramatic bullshit in the business office and that was 7 freaking women butting heads.

I'll be honest, I knew this wasn't going to last. I knew I needed this job because I needed to get back on my feet after Portland, and I have and I've proven not only to myself, but to my parents and everyone else that I am fully capable of taking care of myself. I'm prouder than hell of myself and I don't care if I'm the only one who can say that.

I found the most amazing opportunity last night and I'm going to apply it. It's a fellowship to become a part of a charter school organization working to build up charter schools for k-12 kids in inner-cities where the public school system has pretty much completely failed. I don't know why I feel so compelled by it, but as I was reading it, I just got tears in my eyes and just wanted to be a part of it with everything in me. So I'm taking my time and applying because it's an extended fellowship program, not a job, and getting in is going to take a lot of hard work because I'm incredibly young and inexperienced compared to most of the people applying for the fellowship. I'm going to apply knowing full well I probably have a snowball's chance in hell of getting it, but god damn and am I going to go at it with every ounce and fiber of passion in my body because I don't think I've wanted to be a part of anything more.

I realize how bizarre that is but I feel like I'm ready to take that step and it was just a matter of finding where I wanted to go to do that and finding that fellowship was like a light at the end of the tunnel from this past year. Keep your fingers crossed, pray for me, just send me good vibes on this because I want it and I'm hoping to everything out there I can pull it off and get it.