Spring time itch...

It's officially started. The travel bug I get every spring. The anticipation of just wanting to drive through the sun, with the windows down, staring out at the vast countryside or mountains, or ocean, or forest, I don't really care, just as long as I'm moving. I don't think the idea of adventure ever really leaves my mind. I just need to find someone to have an adventure with. Everyone I know is way too cautious or worrisome over money and time and jobs and I've just kind of come to the conclusion that regardless of bills and jobs and financial concerns, the need to discover is much more overwhelming. I'd rather satisfy that than the creditors constantly after my paychecks.

I think I'm might head down to the Smokey Mountains this summer. Stare at the Appalachians, maybe hike the trail for a few days. Or maybe I'll trek back out to the west coast again and check out the redwoods for the first time and discover the scenery of Idaho and Yellowstone Nat'l. I still have yet to see the Grand Canyon. I wish there was some way for me to just travel constantly and still get paid. Maybe that'll be my new quest. Find someone that will hire me to have adventures and then croon about them and they'll pay me for all of the juicy details of my great adventure...yeah, I wish

I'm definitely in the market for a new job though. I'm not satisfied with merely getting by. I need something challenging. Something I can enjoy coming to work to. This isn't it. Not that it ever really was, but at least I was learning something new and different and paying my bills. Now I'm just paying my bills and not having fun. Between the sitting in traffic for 4 hours a day, the mindless filing and data entry, and the strange small office politics, I'm just ready for a change. I've just come to this point where I don't want to feel stuck anymore. I'm ready to feel unstuck and constantly changing but making the same horrendous commute, sitting behind the same desk, pushing the same paperwork, filing the same bullshit, listening to the same squabbles day in and day out, I'm ready for something different.

I want to finally feel like me spending 4 long years at college earning a degree is actually worth something. I just don't want to feel as if I have to end up as some secretary with the ever-so-appropriate title of "office bitch" for the rest of my life. I told myself that being back home was a transitory thing, that I wouldn't be here for too long, just enough time to get me back on my feet and I absolutely MUST stick to that. I cannot stay content, especially when the job I have isn't even worth doing for the amount of money I make versus the amount of money I'm in debt. I will NEVER get out of debt if I stay here and that, that more than anything else is my main goal. Once I can honestly say I am debt free, is when I have absolutely nothing holding me back from doing what it is I want to do

..Maybe I'll just sell some eggs to infertile rich couples and pay off my debt that way....