One week...

I have spent the last week mulling over this job with the ACLU. Though it is a really great opportunity to begin a career working for an organization that I would love to be a part of, I started to second-guess it. I didn't want to upset my summer plans with Brian and, in all honesty, fuck him over. I didn't want to change my vacation with Katelyn either and above anything else, this would've been a 3k pay DECREASE from where I'm at, and I'm barely getting by right now. It was a definite ego-boost in the job-hunt being told that I had a great resume and being considered "cream of the crop". That definitely poured a little more hope into my search but the more I gave thought to it, the more I really didn't want it, even though I did. As much as I wanted it, I was hoping I didn't get it so when I got the email today stating they'd chosen someone else, I was more relieved than disappointed.

I know where I need to be and that's here. I have roots here now as much as I didn't want there to be, I do. I'm ok with that. I'm still looking for another job because lord knows I need to get out of where I'm at. Eric has offered me up an employee referral to a couple of openings with Northwest Mutual Funds which could mean a definite pay INCREASE which I desperately need. I don't worry about identity theft, because honestly, no one would want to take on my credit score, they wouldn't get approved for squat. So at least that's one less thing I have to worry about.

The temperature has finally risen to a summer temperature. It was almost 90 today and it's humid as balls. Oh Chicago summers, how I haven't missed you in the slightest. The humidity, the stickiness, the irritability of EVERYONE, at least I have Lake Michigan to swim in *shudder* well, maybe if I want to get Hepatitis C and die I'd do that. Fucking nasty ass Lake Michigan. I'm going to find a pool and get a membership. I need to swim. I miss it. I haven't gone since Labor Day weekend. Which was actually really fun but 9 months ago.

My head is on straight. I am so ready for this 3-day weekend and seeing everyone I haven't seen since my graduation last year. It's going to be great. And I can tell Bebe he has nothing to worry about this summer. My ass is staying firmly planted in Chicago, watching Project Runway and So You Think You Can Dance with him.